I’m mushy like I’m in love
My pastor speaks in tongues
A baby in red screams
Put down your leg on the foundation of christ
I read my erotic books in church
My stomach bulged right before reuniting with a guy after two years—
let me pay your dowry
You are in a hurry
I want to be a nerd
My sister saw a video of my masturbation, she asked me why?
I haven’t had enough pleasure I answered—
Why do parents love one child more than another?
My mother answered because she knows how to answer
she knows how to love my sister more than me
My phone is getting worse
where can I get money for a new one?
My sister and I wrote in the church
She writes about God and me about a new phone
A light-skinned baby looks at me
I wonder what goes through her mind
Maybe she knows of my baby
My face is oily from looking at my feet for too long
I took a picture of my mother while she talked about children
That doctor will break your heart—
I paid for my meal and he paid for his, I have stopped drinking beer—
I’m sober
I can be bored without alcohol
My mother insults me
Foolish, stupid, evil girl you are
Nothing can control you
I knew they are talking about me before I came in
So I moved my bible to see clearly.
Buy me a soda coke
What happened to us?
Where did I go wrong?
City life is full of worries
I want to cry and wet my pillows and maybe die
My hands are getting weak from chores and staying too strong
A therapist tells me to write ten things that make me happy
I realised then that I have never been truly happy—
Money, food, sex perhaps…
Observe a minute of silence for my friend, he died a month after his wedding—
I remembered my dad too, vague, six feet, fresh
Read a book and eat coconut, love builds, and so does hate
My baby cousin showed me a shaky tooth
Let’s tangle, it takes two remember…
Don’t pay attention to that foolish girl!
My mother warns…
do I have friends?
I’m mushy like I’m in love
A green bird flew
Divine protection screams the pastor
God does not care
— you hate your neighbour now he is dead
Me or the cat?
Wash your tongue or it will smell
I thought about electricity, water and God
at least I can watch porn
I wonder what goes through God’s mind
don’t you miss me Obidi?
so I got mushy again